I think it’s finally time to talk about my life again. I make everything I do very personal. I try to connect with everyone I meet. I love people, I love diversity, I love learning, I love knowledge, I love history, I love nature, I love life. But sometimes, I forget all of that. Those are the hardest times. When I forget what I love, I forget who I am. I lack purpose, direction, and strength. When life takes an unexpected turn, I often naturally turn inward and focus on myself. I AM my worst critic.
There is delicate balance in all things, my well being included. On one hand, it is important to care for and nurture myself- being sure that my physical, mental, and spiritual needs are fulfilled. On the other hand, it is important to remember, care for, and expand my circle of truth, knowledge, and love in the world I have been so blessed to live in. If I loose that balance, I loose my footing. I’m no longer on solid ground.
(Yes, I’m a Libra)
Life has a funny way of knocking things
off kilter. Just when I feel a little balance, another weight is thrown on the other side of the scale. I understand. It’s okay. This is how we grow. Are we ever meant to feel real balance? Fairness, equality, and justice are all very important to me. But are they ever rightly achieved?
I’m slowly learning that it’s not the result of one effort that seals its worth. It’s the result of countless efforts that shows true value. Like climbing a spiral staircase- I may be going in circles, but at least I’m headed upward.
Most recently, I’ve experienced set backs in many big parts of my life. It’s hard for sure. I never like to go into specifics. I don’t trust the Internet with all of my secrets… Only some. 😉 Needless to say, blog wise I’ve been distant. It’s hard to articulate anything, when you don’t quite know how you feel or what to disclose.
I’m reminded of the saying posted on my grandma’s fridge, “I finally got it all together, and I forgot where I put it!”
I haven’t really lost it, but I’m finding it again- in bits and pieces. Thanks for sticking by me. (at least some things are sticking together) The rest of the bits will fall into place- maybe, someday, probably, I’m sure of it, kind of… we’ll just have to live and see.