Facing the Day

When I woke up, I did not want to face this day. I missed work yesterday due to illness and I find that the days right after a sick day are my hardest to face. I tend to think of all the reasons why I should just give up, die, and never return. I’m trying my best to rid myself of these feelings, and understand why I’m so hard on myself. I did make it up and out of the house today, a little late for work, but better than not showing up at all.

I have a great boss and I work for a great company that I love. I have the opportunity to persue my dreams while working here, and I just have to get up the nerve to do it. I’ve realized over recent months that my love for writing is HUGE. I write all the time, it’s such a rewarding hobby! I get to know myself better through writing, and I come to conclusions that otherwise would have taken me such a long time to get to. I’m also able to connect with people that I otherwise might not meet. Sometimes the best comfort is just knowing that there’s someone out there who’s got similar thoughts and problems. I’m able to persue this hobby while working where I work, and I’m even able to take classes to improve my skills. I don’t believe in coincidence, I think everything happens for a reason. I’m thankful that I am where I am today.
Facing the day has helped me to realize all of this. It was really, really hard to just get dressed this morning… but I’m glad I did.