Sometimes life just is too hard to handle and I shut down or blow up. I’m having one of those moments now. I’m grateful for medication to help me through these situations, but I often wonder…Why do I even need it? Shouldn’t I be able to handle things on my own? When life is hard isn’t there a reason for that? Am I taking the easy way out? I also think about how much the medicine does help. How are you supposed to tell if you are normal or if you really should take some kind of medication to help balance things out? Is there some sort of “normal” that everyone should be? I just don’t know, and that’s what causes all of the questions. I’ve often come to the conclusion that I DO need to take medication and that it’s okay and helps me to survive, but I always go back to the questioning. I don’t know why it’s so hard to accept, but it is. Maybe its hard because I’m always choosing whether or not I need it when I’m stressed out, anxious, and not quite sane. That must be it.