He Lied

Lyrics to a song I’m writing:

He hugged me like a mountain and told me he would keep me satisfied
And now I must admit that mountain of a man, he lied.
He chased me like the breeze, told me that he’d stay right by my side
But now I must admit this wanderin’ man, he lied.
He kissed me like the sun, told me that I’d never have to hide
So, now I must admit this sun burn of a man, he lied.

Long Time Gone

I signed into my blog today after several years of not even looking at it. I remember now how much I like to write, how much I like to connect, and how much I enjoy expressing myself. I miss this.

Life is different now, I’ve grown- changed, but in many ways I’ve remained the same. 

Life events since I last wrote:

  • I moved into my own place- again. :) 
  • My grandma passed away.
  • Started and ended a relationship- well, a few.
  • My brother moved in with me.
  • I got a new job.
  • I’ve started volunteering… a lot!

Some big changes.

 

Some things that I’m grateful have remained the same:

  • I’m still me.
  • I still have the greatest friends and family in the world.
  • I still have passion for what I do.
  • I still have goals, aspirations, and hope- that’s a big one.
  • I still like bullet lists. :)

I know not many people will read this, because I haven’t been around for so long… but what’s new with you?

IMG_8157-Becca aka Wonder Woman

Just a little piece…

When it comes to Him, I thought that I’d cried all my tears. Today I found out that I was wrong. I saw him in line at the homeless shelter… MY homeless shelter. I was dropping off some donations and then planning to work a few hours. When I saw him, he was just turning to look away from me. Our eyes didn’t meet, but I know he saw me. I was shaking as I pulled the donations from the trunk of my car. I wondered if he was watching me. I parked and I was crying before I even reached the building… uncontrollable tears streaming down my face. I don’t know why it hit me so hard. Don’t know why I couldn’t stop crying.

So many things hit me all at once. The man who I once committed to, the one I chose above all others, over everything else, the one I lived with and slept with and ate with and fought with and laughed with and grew with and suffered over… and cried over. HE was standing at the end of the line, and I cried. I cried for what we could have been. I cried for what he could have been. I cried for the hard times that were thrust upon him and the hard times he’s chosen to endure. I cried because although he can never be part of my life again, he’ll always have a piece of my soul and that part of my soul is aching.

Pauper of the Soul

Please take only what you’ll use
I only have so little so please…
I’ll leave my worries on the doorstep
If you’ll promise to help my little love just grow.
I’m a poor sucker with a weakness for weaknesses
Just leave me alone I’ll be fine on my own
Life’s just a teacher of hard knocks and soft goods
I’m just a drunk with no prospects at hand
I’m not a drunk I’m just lost in the plan
Please give only what you can
I’ll take only what I need.

I’ve been sitting on this for over two years. I stole lines from songs and poems that I like, tweaked some of them a little… don’t know whether I like it or not, but I LOVE the title. Where’d that come from? (My head, I think.)

So much to do…

Lately I’ve thought a lot about the things I want to do… but haven’t been doing.  (There are many clichés and quotes that fit this subject perfectly. They won’t be mentioned here. :) ) This train of thought  may stem from the New Year and traditional New Year’s resolutions, but I’ve resolved not to make resolutions. It’s about time to get started on some of these things nonetheless.

Here is a list that I put together in hopes of finding a place to start: (Finding and watching the videos that go along with each item was a lot of fun too!)

  1. Get in Shape, Girl! Anyone remember this?

  2. Develop sound financial habits and goals:

  3. Learn to speak Spanish better than this guy: 

  4. Learn to play the guitar and ukulele. Yes, I have the Esteban Instructional Series…

  5. Move into my own place.

All of these objectives will take time. There’s not one item listed  that will come with ease or without concentrated effort and/or practice. There’s no time like the present! (Okay, one clichéd quote.) The School of  Becca is now in session! And maybe… just maybe I’ll dance with the same exuberance that this guy does when I’ve accomplished these goals.

“Arnold Wiggins: one, The System: zero!”

Christmas Cheer

Ooo! Look at the pretty bows!

Grandma and I wrapped gifts this afternoon.

I’ve always wanted to tie pretty bows.  So, this year I went online, watched some videos, read some instructions and learned how. I had a lot of fun! It takes a little longer to tie bows, rather than buy them, but I think the results are worth it. I also made some of the gifts I’ll be giving to my coworkers today… but they’re not wrapped yet, and I can’t tell you what they are. ;)

The tree just looks prettier with presents around it.

I’m enjoying the Christmas Season more this year than I have in years past. I haven’t been able to pin down the reason, but I’m glad that the Spirit of Christmas is here!

The Week in a Glance: Blurbs by Becca

Weather forecast for tonight: dark.
November 29 at 8:40 PM

“The secret of getting ahead is getting started. The secret of getting started is breaking your complex overwhelming tasks into small manageable tasks, and then starting on the first one.“ ~Mark Twain
November 30 at 9:12 PM

Entertain me! Please send jokes, pics etc. I’ll be at an enthralling presentation all day. Text, email or facebook. Contact info on my profile.
December 1 at 10:38 AM

Deflated.
December 1 at 5:46 PM

On the first day of winter and the longest night of the year, join us in remembering our homeless brothers and sisters who we lost to life on the streets during 2010. Homeless Persons’ Memorial and Candle Light Vigil
December 1 at 10:42 PM

♥ ♥ Amazing talent! :) This made my night. ♥ ♥ Flash Mob, Hallelujah Chorus
December 1 at 10:51 PM

Rejuvenated.
December 1 at 10:55 PM

Tried to count to infinity, but it took FOREVER!
December 2 at 8:52 AM

And today I have blurbed nothing. I had a super busy week at work:

  • Mondays are always quite hectic… with it being Monday and all.
  • Tuesday, I completed 4 hour long assessments and completed data entry for 5 of my previous appointments.
  • Wednesday, I sat through two 3 hour software demonstrations. (Thus the plea for entertainment) Then I went to open enrollment for my insurance.
  • Thursday, I sat through another two 3 hour software demonstrations. The second was torturous for all involved. I went home and cried myself to sleep.
  • Friday, I awoke with a migraine and stayed in bed ’til 10:45 AM. I went to work and did my best to catch up on the work that I missed Wednesday and Thursday… OH THE JOY! :)

Good week. I was surprised by how much I missed the people who I work with and my normal job when I was at the demos. I guess I really do love my job!